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I woke up in a chilly, rainy morning. It was a bit late, around 10:00 am. I had to do a few things the night before so had to keep up with sleep. My day actually began pretty well. I folded the blanket like I usually do, reach for my sleepers and unlocked my room door. I reached for the pot for some hot water and made myself a cup of hot cocoa. I looked outside the window as the light breeze touched my skin. There was no one in the house except me. My parents went to my grandparent’s house to see them for the holy week. It’s Maundy Thursday today.

Yep, I’m alone for the holy week. I really have to stay as I was expecting my uncle to come to continue with the house construction he’s been doing for more than a month now. Unfortunately, he had to cancel since it was raining since last evening. The rain isn’t really that hard but I guess he needs a break too. It was okay but that left me alone at home.

At first it was okay. I was even kidding my sister online about how I felt waking up alone in the house in a cold morning. I said I really felt how it is to live as an eligible bachelor. She told me to just savor the moment.

I had plenty of time throughout the day – something that I love to have. It just lets out my thoughts, whatever that’s left locked up in my mind. It’s a mental freedom I always cherish to have.

After lunch, I decided to plug-in a few movies, first of which was “The Myth” movie by Jackie Chan. My brother lend me a dvd compilation of a few Jackie Chan movies so I had a great time watching oriental action. When I have plenty of time (like today), I really like to internalize the messages in movies. A line from the movie struck me. It was from the princess who said “Why do we struggle so much to live, when we just become slaves of our destinies”. It was really beautiful (and the princess was pretty by the way). The princess was betrothed to a certain royalty but fell in love with the military general instead. For her, the rites and rituals of becoming a princess was too much. All the riches and status were hindrances to true freedom.

Aside from the impressive stunts that Jackie Chan pulled out that entertained me, the movie left me to thinking again about happiness and freedom and life. There is still that side of me that wants to dream again and again. I know much are entangled with my emotions but the mere presence of such in my heart, more than in my mind leaves me asking questions. Are there things higher than what meets my reality now? Are we set to each of our own higher purpose or am I simply a hallucinating guy disconnected from his immediate reality?

I guess what I am saying is, there are moments in our life that we pause for a minute and ask ourselves the meaning of our lives. I guess you have those moments too – a reflective, retrospective time that makes you ask the purpose for your very existence. Often times, we get too busy with work and daily tasks that we forget why we are doing such things in the first place.

After the movie, I watch another movie (still a Jackie Chan movie) and another and the last one is a movie by Nicholas Cage – The Weatherman. The latter was a story of a man who tried to refuse how the world sees him but then later on went in with the flow of life. The movie wasn’t asserting much of a point really but rather leaves the audience thinking for themselves on how they are going to make those things up in their own lives.

There was a part of the day that I felt alone. Tonight, I’ll be sleeping alone in this house in a cold bed, waiting for the sun to shine again the next day. Indeed, no man is an island. No matter how loner I thought I was before, a company would always lighten up the mood compared to being all alone. I might enjoy the view in our garden, the trees swaying softly in the breeze as drops of rain poured down every leaf. But having no one to share the moment, I only feel more and more sad by the minute. I dished out the idea immediately, preventing further damage but the thought was there already.

I decided to make the moment more productive – and decided to blog about it. So here I am.

If there is one thing I’ve learned today, here it goes: that life is full of seasons, a cold icy winter, a hot sunny summer, a lively spring and an melancholic fall, each play an important role in making us what we are – humans.

This chilly morning that I woke up to was just a morning amongst the mornings of my life. Though time seem to fly so fast throughout the day, it still had its part on making me appreciate the life I’m living.